Back home after a couple of days away, and after my previous writing has been posted. I'm just trying to write again and to sort of continue where I left off. I've had another offer for help with regards my next job application, and as I stated in the previous post, I've got to perhaps search within myself to allow that to happen and to stop myself from feeling a failure by allowing help in this process. I don't know why I feel this way, it's not what I would say it was normal. So why do I feel like it's a failing? I don't know, I have no idea where it began or why it began.
It does however pose a problem for me, as it perhaps does hinder me in applications and my potential career development.
So what else? I had no idea how long it had been between posts on here, but then I do go for long spells without posting then return. I return here after a traumatic year, where I lost my mother, I was in and out of hospital and essentially lost my closest family. Still that was expected after mum died, I knew that was going to happen, Hayley has done things that has gone beyond redemption and I can never forgive her. I don't care what others say, she's just over stepped the mark, and to think she blames me.