Wednesday, August 22, 2007

Bright Start

It's a bright sunny morning in the wonderful city of Salford. It's been a decent week in terms of the weather and yesterday though in some ways sad, was also in others a wonderful day.

After work had finished at lunch time I got to mum's to find that she's going to complete the sale of her house next week, and be out of the family home on Friday of next week also. It's the end of an 80 year connection to the drive for our family, but hey all good things come to an end I guess at some point. That was the sad bit I guess, as I couldn't see us leaving that place, it was so perfect, but it got to big for mum in the end and we have to move on from here.

The plus side was the time spent with AJ yesterday. At first she was reluctant to go out, and it took some work to get her out, but in the end we went out and she did enjoy herself. It was important to get her out though we ended up in the strangest of places, but still at least it was fun and yes I did spoil her ever so slightly and will do again shortly, but hey that's the way it is. That made my day yesterday and to see her be so pleased was fun to see. I'll have her on Friday as well, which gives me a full day to fill, but that's easily done as I've plenty of places to which I can take her or activities to make the day seem short.

Today I'm off to Preston, which should be fun, thoguh how much I don't really know. It's going to be a tough day, but one I'll enjoy. Then it's back here to play on the new toy in the flat... A new pc, which I'm quite happy to say isn't just your basic machine like both of other pc's that I've had.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Light bulb moment

It seems to be that after a period of extensive entries I've gone a bit quiet again... Well it isn't due to me being depressed or high to be honest, it's down to me either not having the time or there is is no need to put anything down in words.

I mention time and of course I'm online quite a bit, but it's also a matter of how tired I am after the day and what time I've got to get out of the house in the morning. Of late, work has seen me leave the house quite early, almost school like time scheduled, which leaves me with little time of an evening to put anything down as I'm in wind down mode when I return home and just want to relax a little. So right now, just about a week since my last entry I've returned to put something down.

Life is good, work isn't so good, but it's been worse and so I've no complaints, well I have plenty, but none that are worthy of any sort of reaction in here. I'm well, though I've got yet another huge bruise on my leg, through to knocking my leg on the mini bus the other day. People are saying I bruise easily, but just as I started to write this paragraph, let alone the entry, I suddenly understood why I've got this bruise. It isn't down to me being soft and easy to injure, but this injury was picked up a day or so after a rather busy day of sports that left me tired and aching all over for a couple of days. My legs were already bruised internally, but the knock on the leg which I took has brought the bruising out and so it wasn't so much a heavy knock, but an accumulation I guess.

The power of word works again for me, as I figure out yet another of life's little mystery's that revolves around myself. I should write everyday on here, that way I could solve my life's problems almost instantaneously but then life would be dull and boring and I'd never leave the flat for writing.

Sunday, August 05, 2007

Here Comes the Fun Times

My oh my, what a few days it's been since last Thursday, it isn't that it's been busy or anything, but I've not been myself some how. I have hardly slept and have felt so tired that at times I couldn't walk. It's been very strange, but after sleeping around 16 hours yesterday I feel slightly refreshed and ready to go for the week ahead, or so I hope.

It's been a nice week or so weather wise, and considering the rain we've had over in this country it's been great to see the sun out in the sky, no matter how cool it's been. Today is the start of the football season over here, which is really strange, but hey it's good to have football back and soon it's the start of the hockey training camps and warm up games over in Canada too. Once that's up and running all the best sports will be going and I'll be happier than I have been over the summer.

It's also the start of the summer activities this week, so it's all go as of now. I'm hoping that the summer activities go well this year. They've changed from what they were, and that's the concern, however we know our jobs and we know what we have to do. I'm sure we'll have one or two problems, but then we'll also have some good times ahead. Let's the fun begin......

Thursday, August 02, 2007

Testing tme

It's been a week since I last touched base in here, and a whole host of things have been thrown at me since then, and a lot of things have bounced off me as well. It's been a strange week I'd say, not least with work, but hey that's what makes life so interesting.

This past week hasn't been a great week as such, but it's given me the alternate that has been required of late, the down week as you might say. It's brought about the crashing down of my high mood, impart due to the cold that I had, and impart due to the way the world has treated me. This is a mini test that I need to work through, this is the moment when I'll know if things are good for me or back to normal. I'm more positive about things right now, I've seen what it's like to be happy, and this can be and should be a mere blip on that, but I have within me the ability to make that blip into a tidal wave of emotion and sadness.

I'm unwilling to pinpoint any particular reason as to what has caused this swing in mood, mainly because if I do that, I'm sort of opening the door to the darkness, and I'm not going to do it. It's been a bad week, I need a good week or some good news to bring me back, it can be anything, nothing specific and that's the interesting part of this, I'm opening myself up to the light instead of the dark and that's how it always should be, but hasn't been part of my battle plan before (if it has, I've not identified it).

So what of the next few days? Well if things go to plan then I'll be happy again soon, and moving forward with my life. I'll be happier materialistically as well, but that's something to try and keep in check, it's perhaps that, which has taken me to a point of desolation before now, and so I need to watch what I ascertain that I need, rather than what I would like.