Sunday, October 07, 2012

People Are Strange

It's not 9am, and whilst I'm sure that I can find things to do, I think that for the best part of things I've got everything done.  I need to contact a couple of people with regards something, but apart from that I should be fine, and they can't be contacted over the weekend, well they can, but I'm not going to, as it's sort of work type stuff.

Had this been any other Sunday I'd be doing my fruit and nut right now, but I'm going out later on and so I'm happy to be sort of done and free to play around for the next hour or two.  However before I go on, I need to look at something that I realise I'm struggline with.  That's selling myself, I can vocalise them, but putting it down in words on an application form, even with all the experience that I've got of them, it's still a drag and still probably the thing that lets me down when I apply for a post.  It's crazy I know, I can type and talk about myself for ages in here or in emails, but when it matters and I want to be positive I find it so difficult.  However, I'll try and work through it and fill in the current form I've got, though I hate having to do it.  

So last night I was out with some old friends at a reunion, and again it wasn't too bad, though when there is only 5 of you it isn't too bad.  At the most we'd only have 15 of us, but out of that 15 I doubt we'll ever see 4 or 5 of them again.  I guess having such a low number makes it more comfortable for me to take in, and it is almost controlable, it isn't a big damage control situation, which makes me fearful of a school reunion.  This is almost spooky, as I write this paragraph and more so the later part of it, I've got The Door's playing "People Are Strange" which is so apt.  Well apt for me anyway, as much as I dislike the idea of reunions, I also have the curiosity to attend to see what people have done with themselves, and I guess it's why I get worked up by the idea to a point.  I know that it would only be for a few people that I'd attend, but of  course I'd end up regretting going.  So I stay clear, and stay clear of any groups on things like facebook.  

Talking of things I try to avoid, Xmas to early.  I've certainly put in here how it comes around to early and how straight after Bonfire night in the UK it seems to appear.  Well this morning I am guilty as charged for setting myself off.  As I got in last night it had started to get a bit foggy, and this morning when I got up at 7 and looked out the window it was still foggy.  So what did I do?  I switched on a song in my head, Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer!!!!  I couldn't switch it off either, it was a curse and one I had self inflicted....  Xmas is in December, not October, shame on me.  At least I didn't inflict the singing in my head to the world by singing out loud.  OK, what that should say is saying words that sound like song, but is so out of key and tune that to call it song is an insult. 

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